It's like I'd forgotten how to read - or at least lost the will to open the next cover and spend the time and energy it always takes me to become part of the story inside.
For months it's been like that.
I've even found myself dreading the books I've been reading to the girls, sometimes skipping nights with the "You shouldn't have watched that movie before bed - now it's too late" excuse much too often. When is it EVER too late to read the next chapter of a book to your children?! I even started book A.D.D.ing with their books, and sometimes set aside classics like "Call of the Wild" to go watch a mindless chick-flick.
"WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME??!!" I blurted out to the mirror (I tend to stare at myself in accusatory ways in the hopes that I can guilt myself into changing. It's never worked, but for some reason, its usually the first thing I do when I feel bad...TMI? <giggle>.)
The answer came after we finished our second week of homeschool and I finally felt like I had a little routine going...
I am apparently completely incapable of doing two things at once. It was why I couldn't diet while going to college and why I've (rather conveniently) been unable to remember how to do housework since graduating. When I'm focused heart and soul on one thing...I just don't have the gumption for anything else.
Lazy? No will power? I dunno. But, I'm going to cling to something a darling, sweet friend said. "Well, that means that the ONE thing you're doing is going to come out well. If it's got all of YOUR attention - its bound to be good." XOXO
Okay, okay...that's not going to work.
So - at the recommendation of my mother (God Bless that woman's soul for putting up with me the past...well, forty years!) I picked up "Destiny of the Republic: A Tale of Madness, Medicine, and the Murder of a President" by Candace Millard. (It's "professional" breakdown is here.)
It is a great book; a book about the "what ifs" of History, the dark ironies of Time, and it continuously evoked thoughts of another America that "could have been" had our 20th president not been assassinated by a completely loopy psychopath with delusions of grandeur. I liked the author so much that the next book I'm reading is by her as well. (See it on the sidebar under "The Book I'm Reading Now".)
Yes. I went back to what I do best, History, to get those "juices" flowing again. The good news is - it worked! The book bug is back but I've since discovered that I am seven (SEVEN !!) books behind schedule for my goal - so there is going to be some serious Kindle Fire happening here! (Oh, Lordy - I do love that thing...but if I must be honest...my next book is a hardcover. And so is the next. But I promised that I would never go back through my rantings and ravings about the feel of a good hardcover...)
Uh-oh, you say! But what about that "problem" you have with only being able to do one thing at a time? What about the housework, and homeschooling the girls?
Heck - Hubby's been doing the dishes and laundry all of this time anyway - and maybe I can just read all of those books out loud to the girls as I go...
...surely that counts as homeschooling....right?
Onward and Forward!!